too much Confidence
By Scott Dyer
September 17, 2020
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Two and half years ago I experienced what was possibly the scariest and most embarrassing moment of my life. My wife and I were living in Asia at the time and we had taken a winter holiday to an island off the coast of Thailand.
I grew up in Maryland and my family has had a sailboat my entire life and every single family vacation was on our sailboat, Jubilee. So, when I discovered that our beach bungalow had Hobie Cat (12 foot catamaran) sailboats that you could take out for pretty cheap, I was super pumped to show off my sailing skills to my new bride in this beautiful exotic place.
Within minutes we were cruising on the beautiful blue ocean water, it was perfectly romantic and I was super proud of myself. I was feeling ambitious, we were doing about 15 knots and I was on cloud nine. I told my wife that once we got around the next point we would have to tack and turn around, but in order to get the wind in the right direction we would have to go a little further out to sea.
After 15 minutes of going further out into the ocean it became clear that I had totally screwed up and that the winds were not going to be able to take us back in the direction our bungalow. Not only was I embarrassed, I was legitimately scared. If the wind didn’t stay in the exact same direction, I wouldn’t even be able to get us back to shore, and neither of us had a Thai cell phone plan or even a flare.
In that moment I think I learned what David meant in Psalm 61:1-2 “Hear my cry, O God. Listen to my prayer; from the ends of the earth [literally] I call to you.‘’
All of the confidence that I had foolishly put in myself had blown up in my face. I was literally calling out to God, “lead me to the rock [island]” (Ps 61:2) and my heart burned with envy and fear as I watched giant motorboats pass us by and not hear my cries for help. All I could do was hold onto my hope in the power of God to sustain us and trust that God still had a future for us and that He would not cut off neither our hope, the wind nor our very lives on that beautiful afternoon.
But by God’s grace we finally made it to shore. Feeling like Columbus seeing land for the first time, we kissed the sand then found someone who spoke English, who called our bungalow estate to come and shamefully drag us the 8 miles back to where we embarked.
I’ve never been so relieved in my entire life!
So please learn from me and put your hope in God first, not second. The other way around is destined for some rough seas.
Don’t envy sinners,
but always continue to fear the Lord.
You will be rewarded for this;
your hope will not be disappointed.
— Proverbs 23:17-18
Prayer to start with: Heavenly Father, I recognize that I’m too quick to trust in myself, and I’m often too confident in myself, I even often look at what others have and think that I need that in order to have a good future. I know that you are truly the only one who can give me what I truly need. Hear my requests today. Amen.