sometimes the good suffer
By Freddy King
August 25, 2020
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1 Corinthians 16:1-24
I grew up with the same folk wisdom that Job and the Counselors had. That good behavior is always rewarded, bad or immoral behavior is always punished, that the good succeed and the evil do not. Through the book of Job, we see the biblical authors wrestling with the temporal outworking of God's justice and the questions of suffering.
The first time I wrestled with this folk wisdom was when I was a kid. It was the beginning of the school year. I was just 10 years old and my mom had been diagnosed with AIDS and a few months later passed. My dad also passed from AIDS and I was placed in child protective services. I bounced from place to place till I was 18 and then kicked out because I became an adult. For many years, I questioned God. Why did you take my parents from me? Am I bad child? What did I do to deserve this? God, if you are love, how come you let this happen? I was not getting the answers I was looking for so I turned to drugs and alcohol to escape the pain I was in. I was in a trap house and tried to take my own life. I gave up on life and God. When I was dying from an overdose, I asked God one last question. "God are you even real? If so, please save my life. I don’t want to die like this." I survived the overdose and was checked into a mental hospital and was released. I then checked into a a homeless shelter where I met Christ for the first time. A pastor would pick us up and bring us to his house and preach the word. He and his wife helped me get saved.
All these questions, just like Job had, was answered only when I encountered God. It’s when I met Christ - the innocent one who took my place on the cross. I finally understood that this pain and loss was not because I was evil or bad but because I was loved. After 12 years of bondage, I was set free and made a new creation. Like in Job, God restored me and gave me a new dad and mom at the age of 22. The pastor and wife became my parents, I moved in with them and got a job and my life would change forever.
No matter what situation you are in, God is right there with you. Through your pain and grief, God is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. Don’t listen to the lies of Satan. Believe in the truth - that God loves you so much that he took our place on the cross. You are his beloved child and he will never let you go and is just waiting for you with open arms.
I waited patiently for the Lord to help me,
and he turned to me and heard my cry.
He lifted me out of the pit of despair,
out of the mud and the mire.
— Psalm 40:1-2
Prayer to start with: Lord, this moment seems so dark and it’s getting hard to see what you are doing in this moment. I have so many questions and wonder if you still love me. Lord shower me with your compassion and let me know that’s it not because I’m bad or evil that this pain exists, but it’s for your glory. Lord help me to overcome the attack on my emotions. It seems like I’m being crushed on every side. Lord Jesus save me, I want to look back on this moment and see that you were here with me. I want to testify of this season we crossed and that you were my portion. Lord remember your promise that you will never let me go. Thank your Lord for this pain; it has made me realize that you are a God that comes through for those you love, and when this passes I want nothing left but praises. This I pray in Jesus' name.