make me uncomfortable
By Irina Coombes
June 17, 2020
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1 Kings 18:1-46
One man against 450 – talk about social pressure!
Elijah the prophet was a man of truth in a time where king Ahab introduced the false god, Baal, to Israel. But Elijah knew what God was capable of and was not going to go down easy when Ahab assembled 450 of his false prophets.
This takes me back to when my husband and I first met. He was studying to be a pastor and I was coming back to God after a season of rebellion. One day he asked me, “Would you ever get on your knees and worship God in the middle of a crowded space, like a mall?” I thought the question was a bit odd and didn’t give him an answer. However, the question stuck me with me throughout our marriage.
Twelve years later, at a women’s conference with approximately 7,000 women in attendance, the question came up again. Lights, music, fireworks, and lots of activity around me, God told me to get on my knees and worship him.
“Say what?!?! Right now, seriously? No one is on their knees and the conference is ending.” That’s what I kept repeating back to God. He kept prompting.
I broke down in tears and asked him why working at a church and doing work for his kingdom was not enough. I had poured hours into volunteering and sacrificed daily. I always said yes! I knew no boundaries and “No” was not in my vocabulary. Had I not proven myself already?
Apparently not. For 5 minutes I kept making my case and questioning why I needed to get on my knees and worship him when that’s all I’d been doing during that 3-day conference and for so many years of my life previously. Did I really have to get on my knees to prove that I loved him???
I did. Yes, I did need to get on my knees.
It was then I realized I was still in somewhat of a state of rebellion because I was only willing to do what was easy for me. Getting on my knees and being the awkward one was not easy. Going against social norms was not easy.
God didn’t give up on me at that women’s conference. I got on my knees and I worshiped him. I cried my face off and asked for forgiveness about doing only what was easy and in my comfort zone. I worshiped him without any regard as to what was going on around me. I didn’t care what people thought. I knew it was me and God at that moment and nothing else mattered. Just his presence was all I needed. I didn’t need to go along with social norms because they will always change. But God’s word and his love for us never change.
For Elijah, God put on quite a fire show that day! Elijah called down fire to show that the Lord is God, our lives bear the light of our heavenly Father. God still uses flashes of bright lights to point others to him.
Your name, Lord, endures forever,
your renown, Lord, through all generations.
— Psalm 135:13
Prayer to start with: Make me uncomfortable God! Push me beyond my limits and test me. Use me in any way you desire and get me out of my comfort zone. Let your light shine through us so that others may see your works and give you glory! Amen.